bp129

The apostle reminds us that Christian life—married or not—isn't about personal fulfillment. That speaks to me. 225 rejectors turned me off. I want to be alone. Getting the house to myself showed me that. It is human tendency to create & pursue idols. Much like Adam & Eve, all humans long for some object that lies on the other side of a veil of prohibition (like a magician’s curtain). Because this object is inaccessible to us, we invest it with a kind of religious significance, revering it as sacred. As a result, in our daily lives we operate with the assumption that if we could somehow obtain the object of our desire, it would provide us with the kind of wholeness & well-being that we seek. In my 20s, I sdaily prayed for a wife. In my 40s, I'm daily praying to stay single. But Jesus pulls the magician’s curtain back to reveal the truth: our sacred object is an illusion. & it always has been. There is nothing behind the curtain that will ever fulfill us. In fact, the “lack” that marks our lives—the “emptiness” we obsessively attempt to fill—is actually created by the very object that we seek. It started when I broke down 7 days a week after Granny lied & called a promised truck a dream. It badly ruined my grades not able to do my homework or study. So I unbuckled & prayed for death. So even when what is sought for is obtained, our experience of the fulfillment it provides is profoundly unfulfilling. Thus for Jesus to say that marriage & sex are not part of resurrection life is not to make a once substantive reality disappear. Instead, it is to reveal to us that our sacred object never actually existed in the first place. I feel whole among aloneness. My dream home is an RV where I regularly submit articles. I am a 45m who lives with his mom. I want to be single. The 225 rejections were unreal pain.